under
construction
by: tonka, tonka stone
contact info:
iowan_oregonian@yahoo.com
...Back
in
the
Fetal
Position,
Again
I'm soo glad U R here...
ECHO-ING LONLINESS
Do you know the feeling...?
?of suffocation,
with plenty of 'air'
?the squeezing-ness,
of holding your breath,
as u breathe
?of fading,
without getting to GO
?of pins & needles,
everywhere BUT...
your skin
?of walking on egg shells,
& how 'bout light bulbs
w/o the blood n pain
?of friction,
as in 2 stx til it sparks into..
..an inferno
?or rather.....
atoms & molecules &
so forth & so on,
on a collision course
for unnaturally
SPONTANEOUS COMBUSTION
?
>MUSIC AS A MEDIATOR< &nb sp;
...soothes the beast
...enchants the serpant
...calms the cowards
songs are
my prayers,
my cleansers,
my relief,
my regimine
my worship service occurs @ the jukebox
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metaphorically speaking...
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There's danger about. Lurking between every line, passing thru your every breath....
...its not safe out there...
...PROTECTION IS EMINENT & EMANANT...
{what an interesting word i chose; had to look it up; after i thought of it & thats what i learned }
its soo dangerous out there....scary,
the weak, the innocent, i fear for them
hell i fear for ME
ever feel the wrath of battle after being stripped of your armor?
...the only allowance being survival, which really isnt the goal you want to have. its the goal you have to have...
ever feel that?
******
what's this life for?
I'm a runner on the track team, I'm up!
"Win the race runner! WIN!"
says coach.
BANG! I'm off! whats this? its coach, hes on the track, hes in my lane, hes blocking my way...now why would coach do that???
is there any reasonable answer?
AND WE WONDER HOW THINGS EVER GOT SO AWFUL
with friends/family like that...
...makes me understand the so-called enemy...
EXACTLY!--who is the enemy?
they all are
it
makes
me
dizzy
ever walk a tight rope?
me either, but i think i know what it feels like
it feels like my life
[how 'bout you?]
some evil body
threw rocks at a bee's
nest til they swarmed....
but i'm hangin in there,
kiddo,
by a noose.
true blue
radical red
longing in lavender
caution color
the yearning of yellow
gregarious green
ghostly grey
& the invisibility of the neutrals...
...that allow the rainbows
ahit fuck dam shit fuck dam shit fuck dam shit fuck dam shit fuck dam shit fuck dam
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