Title: Back in the Fetal Position, Again
Tags: depression regression religion politics pain help
Blog Entry: under construction by: tonka, tonka stone contact info: iowan_oregonian@yahoo.com ...Back in the Fetal Position, Again I'm soo glad U R here... ECHO-ING LONLINESS Do you know the feeling...? ?of suffocation, with plenty of 'air' ?the squeezing-ness, of holding your breath, as u breathe ?of fading, without getting to GO ?of pins & needles, everywhere BUT... your skin ?of walking on egg shells, & how 'bout light bulbs w/o the blood n pain ?of friction, as in 2 stx til it sparks into.. ..an inferno ?or rather..... atoms & molecules & so forth & so on, on a collision course for unnaturally SPONTANEOUS COMBUSTION ? >MUSIC AS A MEDIATOR< ...soothes the beast ...enchants the serpant ...calms the cowards songs are my prayers, my cleansers, my relief, my regimine my worship service occurs @ the jukebox ******************************************************* metaphorically speaking... ************************************** There's danger about. Lurking between every line, passing thru your every breath.... ...its not safe out there... ...PROTECTION IS EMINENT & EMANANT... {what an interesting word i chose; had to look it up; after i thought of it & thats what i learned } its soo dangerous out there....scary, the weak, the innocent, i fear for them hell i fear for ME ever feel the wrath of battle after being stripped of your armor? ...the only allowance being survival, which really isnt the goal you want to have. its the goal you have to have... ever feel that? ****** what's this life for? I'm a runner on the track team, I'm up! "Win the race runner! WIN!" says coach. BANG! I'm off! whats this? its coach, hes on the track, hes in my lane, hes blocking my way...now why would coach do that??? is there any reasonable answer? AND WE WONDER HOW THINGS EVER GOT SO AWFUL with friends/family like that... ...makes me understand the so-called enemy... EXACTLY!--who is the enemy? they all are it makes me dizzy ever walk a tight rope? me either, but i think i know what it feels like it feels like my life [how 'bout you?] some evil body threw rocks at a bee's nest til they swarmed.... but i'm hangin in there, kiddo, by a noose. true blue radical red longing in lavender caution color the yearning of yellow gregarious green ghostly grey & the invisibility of the neutrals... ...that allow the rainbows ahit fuck dam shit fuck dam shit fuck dam shit fuck dam shit fuck dam shit fuck dam
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